Alright well another day has come and gone with me plotting sleep in the near future. So lets get this started.
The work day wasn't too bad we have a new room where everyone is suppose to work in now. There's a total of 4 power outlets in the wall, 2 ethernet cables, no windows, 2 whiteboards, 1 door, and 2 sets of tables... I'm loving it so far. The main complaints have been of course, 'nothing on the walls' and ' there's no windows' kind of made me laugh inside. When I told another co-worker about those complaints at lunch he agreed that those were the two best features. Aside from that the day was still same old same old. Worked on request in the queue and listen to Harry Potter book 2 for the most part. The day after lunch kind of went slow, the scripts are fairly automated and the only other issue is QTP crashing when I'm going to focus on tomorrow.
After work came back home, worked out on some weights and watched Daria. Almost done with the series only have the movie left then need something new to watch, might pick up Code Geass (sp?) at some point an old roommate of mine came over and we played about a good 2 hours of Mario Tennis before we finally won a round against an Intense opponent. Part of me believes I I subconsciously choose one of the most difficult combination in the game. Though through the trails and tribulation we had finally succeeded. After which we parted ways (and I maybe over at his place tomorrow) and called it a night. Now I'm here blogging for a bit before I head off to bed.
Honestly this is the first day I actually just sat down and played video games. Gosh knows what else is going down this week. Suppose to help one friend with building a computer, another 2 trouble shooting a computer issue, might take a trip to Ohio for a job interview... so much stuff that could potentially go down this week. In either case going to head off to bed. Night all!
Monday, August 30, 2010
Sunday, August 29, 2010
Objectives for the Week Ahead
Stop by Ben Franklin and locate small tiny plastic bags (similar to Catan).
Practice a bit more of a Final Fantasy music on the keyboard/piano.
Accumulate a reasonable amount of sleep (6-8 hours).
Choose a room and organize it.
Began/Continue to read on a nightly basis.
Clean bathroom.
Workout everyday.
Practice a bit more of a Final Fantasy music on the keyboard/piano.
Accumulate a reasonable amount of sleep (6-8 hours).
Choose a room and organize it.
Began/Continue to read on a nightly basis.
Clean bathroom.
Workout everyday.
Post Beach Vacation Update
Alright so the beach vacation is complete and I'd have to say the break from the norm was definitely needed. I'll go ahead and provide a day by day analysis as to what events occured through Friday, Saturday and Sunday. So here we go.
Friday:
Friday woke up and decided to work from home for that day. To be honest though for the most part I was pretty lazy/easy day overall. Not a whole lot of work due and the only thing on the agenda was to pack up. Though the packing up hit a bit of a hiatus and really wasn't done till last minute. Though even with the hick-ups (and being 10-15 minutes late) I wen to my sister's place and then we went over to pick up my mom. I initially was driving (for about 5 minutes) but my mom wanted to drive instead so basically got out and chilled in the back listening to harry potter for most of the trip. Once we got to the hotel we order pizza (stupidly overpriced pizza) and went to our respective rooms (suite style I got the living room) and head off to bed. I didn't crash till a bit later in the evening. Spent most of the time watching Adult Swim sense it had been a while and my dad doesn't get the channel as part of his standard cable package.
Saturday:
We woke up fairly early like 10/11ish and from there (after room service for breakfast) went to the mall. Usually at this point my mom and sister shop for cloths and I head off to the arcade...what I didn't realize was the arcade was no longer there. Though the plus side of it all was that there was Barnes and Nobles with the A+ book I was reading in my free time. So I called up my sister informed her of the new location and read there for a good bit. Once we were done there we went back to the hotel. I took a quick nap and at some point we went to Lone Star for dinner. It was either this or Olive Garden but didn't matter to me which we choose. Dinner there was alright, took them a while to get our food out so it was 1/2 off. On top of that once I got my food (chicken tenders and fries) the chicken was cold so sent it back. Finishing from there we stopped by a 7-11 and shortly after a Toys-R-Us. I went ahead and grabbed Risk redesign, its a new version of Risk that came out that makes the game go a bit faster. I did find a piano there and could play a tiny bit of the Aeris theme...seeing how my dad has two pianos I might practice it in the future (or find the score sheet to make life easier from guessing). As for my sister and mom they picked up a gift for one of my friend's sons. After the Toys-R-Us adventure we went back to the hotel and went swimming in the pool. Pool wasn't shabby, it had been a bit so it was good to get in the water. I was opposed to it at first but after some consideration I don't regret it. My sister got bored after 15 minutes so at that point we departed. Not much else happen at the end of the day went to bed early.
Sunday:
Today has definitely been the day of rest. Woke up and we left the hotel by 11ish. Though we hit a good bit of traffic so we weren't back in Richmond till 2ish. After we got back I spent most of the day watching the MLG Raleigh stream for Warcraft 3v3 and zoning in and out of consciousness. I might head off to bed early catch up on sleep or reading. Not feeling like doing too much. That's about it for today thanks for reading :).
Friday:
Friday woke up and decided to work from home for that day. To be honest though for the most part I was pretty lazy/easy day overall. Not a whole lot of work due and the only thing on the agenda was to pack up. Though the packing up hit a bit of a hiatus and really wasn't done till last minute. Though even with the hick-ups (and being 10-15 minutes late) I wen to my sister's place and then we went over to pick up my mom. I initially was driving (for about 5 minutes) but my mom wanted to drive instead so basically got out and chilled in the back listening to harry potter for most of the trip. Once we got to the hotel we order pizza (stupidly overpriced pizza) and went to our respective rooms (suite style I got the living room) and head off to bed. I didn't crash till a bit later in the evening. Spent most of the time watching Adult Swim sense it had been a while and my dad doesn't get the channel as part of his standard cable package.
Saturday:
We woke up fairly early like 10/11ish and from there (after room service for breakfast) went to the mall. Usually at this point my mom and sister shop for cloths and I head off to the arcade...what I didn't realize was the arcade was no longer there. Though the plus side of it all was that there was Barnes and Nobles with the A+ book I was reading in my free time. So I called up my sister informed her of the new location and read there for a good bit. Once we were done there we went back to the hotel. I took a quick nap and at some point we went to Lone Star for dinner. It was either this or Olive Garden but didn't matter to me which we choose. Dinner there was alright, took them a while to get our food out so it was 1/2 off. On top of that once I got my food (chicken tenders and fries) the chicken was cold so sent it back. Finishing from there we stopped by a 7-11 and shortly after a Toys-R-Us. I went ahead and grabbed Risk redesign, its a new version of Risk that came out that makes the game go a bit faster. I did find a piano there and could play a tiny bit of the Aeris theme...seeing how my dad has two pianos I might practice it in the future (or find the score sheet to make life easier from guessing). As for my sister and mom they picked up a gift for one of my friend's sons. After the Toys-R-Us adventure we went back to the hotel and went swimming in the pool. Pool wasn't shabby, it had been a bit so it was good to get in the water. I was opposed to it at first but after some consideration I don't regret it. My sister got bored after 15 minutes so at that point we departed. Not much else happen at the end of the day went to bed early.
Sunday:
Today has definitely been the day of rest. Woke up and we left the hotel by 11ish. Though we hit a good bit of traffic so we weren't back in Richmond till 2ish. After we got back I spent most of the day watching the MLG Raleigh stream for Warcraft 3v3 and zoning in and out of consciousness. I might head off to bed early catch up on sleep or reading. Not feeling like doing too much. That's about it for today thanks for reading :).
Thursday, August 26, 2010
Bit of thinking (me = unplugged)
*Warning I did not spell check/proofread this, may god have mercy on your soul*
At first I contemplated over this but then realize that the more (turns off TV) I think about it the less good it does. Honestly the best approach is to just sit down and start writing whatever comes to your mind...so here we go.
A lot of stuff has been crossing the brain as of recently some I like and others I don't like. Finding it a bit unsettling that helping other people out is starting to unnerve me a bit. Like the first thing that comes to mind is "Do I actually enjoy making people happy". The answer I have to say is sometimes. Ask me that same question back in the early years of college and the answer would have been totally different. The joys I use to get from helping other people even as a result of screwing myself over were still worth the effort (even if at times it sacrifice grades). Now a days I've become more of a troll, I do help people yes but there's times where I come out of it thinking 'wow I'm a bit annoyed at myself for helping them there'.
Guess it could be due in part that I'd rather have someone figure out something rather than me tell them. Or if I tell someone how to solve something and then they come back later asking the same question. Bit annoying to be honest. I feel live I've gained this dislike towards helping others in such a way. On the same accord though i really do want to get back to helping other people...let alone if I'm studying for A+ certification I should feel like its contradictory...but really its not to me. When people call into the help desk you realize that most of them (not all of them) are clueless you so you expect a bit of computer illiteracy. But ya know like people I've been hanging out for 3-5 years, playing games with, helping them troubleshoot repeatable issues, you'd think some of it sink in.
Prime example tonight while I was typing this post out had two friends encounter an issue with openings. I'm not exactly an elephant in terms of memory but it does quite well related to tech issues. The main problem was involving opening the ports to allow each to connect to there respective games. Came to me to help troubleshoot in the moment I said open ports they were clueless. I also want to blame the current game market as well. Its honestly spoiled gosh knows how many people knowledge wise in terms of opening ports, forwarding packets, configuring to run in various comparability modes...bit frustrating. Cause these same problems have occurred with Diablo 2, Unreal Tournament, Puzzle Quest, and the list goes on. Given its a bit late as I can't recall a majority of the titles so I'll give some credit for forgetfulness.
I must admit in terms of intelligence I honestly don't view myself as that bright of a person. Yea there's times where I go 'Bryant your a genius' or 'wow I'm on a roll today' but in all honestly its just self encouragement. In the grand schema of things (in respect to work and friends) I have to say I am actually smart. Just the amount of non-con-valuated (?) thought that comes to my mind isn't shabby. It could be that other people aren't that bright (I can believe that) but I honestly can't 100% believe that. Though I do enjoy being around techies that make me awestruck who can just do stuff on the fly that I sit down and contemplate over for a good bit. Perfect example of this is the other side of our team that deals with mostly Unix related work...wouldn't mind doing that constantly expanding the knowledge.
Though from a general knowledge standpoint I'm not all that bright. Quite terrible with directions, have a difficult point at times formulating thoughts and stuff that comes natural to others I'm a bit slow at. It kind of bums me a bit because sometimes I think I'm brilliant when I realize its not all true. Hell some people that might read this may believe it was formulated by a 9th grader or something. In all honest though I wouldn't mind improving a bit in some of those aspects. Probably one of the main reason I picked up blogging again to hopefully remove bad habits involving train of thought and expand the vocabulary a bit. God knows I won't stay on topic.
This leads me to one of my most dreaded thoughts...the future. A part of my life I hate thinking about. First it was the goal of getting through high school, finishing college, then landing a job. Yup I've done all that but really, not feeling motivated anymore. I've attempted establishing relationships (one totally) and while it felt good just didn't seem right. It felt like another dead end initially like 'here's your life sir, you'll spend time with this other individual talking about day to day stuff with physically enjoyment and then continue living'. It just didn't feel right like there was no scope and even without one the scope still feel small, tiny, live and die.
After 3 years I have formulated new goals from getting experience in the field. Obtaining a couple certifications but once that's done where does it put me. New job, new place, new place new experiences but when that said in done what next? Will I be feeling burned out another 3 years from now in my 30s being just the same grumpy middle age man limited by the amount of knowledge. I honestly don't know the trip to Ohio is sounding better but the short term (3-5 years) end result seems to be the same.
It could be me just assuming though...heck I know its a 100% assumption what I posted up there but history is a mean mistress and is very good at repeating itself. Not to mention there's that uncertain aspect of seeking a relationship. I wouldn't mind getting back into one but would actually like to date someone (the last 3 were a bit up there) with a more eased back 'sex' drive per se. Unlike typically guys I don't think with the other head too often. To be honest I haven't done that sort of activity in a couple days (which is odd for me as I tend to do it as a ease off sorta deal). So I know I have built up emotions if stuff like that is going down. I'm not too worried there though if something or lack of something happens there, its not much I can do. Its like going to Disney World for the 1st time and guessing everything that's going to occur...not likely. Plus I feel I'm taking a step away from my dad's pimpness...most likely a good thing.
Physically I'm fairly comfortable with myself. Wouldn't mind losing about 10 lbs but honestly not in a hurry. If I somehow shoot back up to 190 then well the ddr machine and me will become good friends real soon, either that or running will become my new hobby. I'm glad I took a break from P90X today the constant soreness was really starting to drag on me. It doesn't take me 7-10 seconds to get up from the computer now. I actually can move *gasp*. I might pick it up again but unsure yet. I'll definitely keep working out though as it makes me feel good and supplies the energy.
Due to all the above think my overall motivation is down a bit from the norm. Ya the exercising and everything is helping a bit but not sure how to best approach getting the 'old' bryant mentality back. I mean I have my old emotions and passion back for things which is great but if it hurts from time to time then what's the point, might as well just tune them out and feel nothing again. Now looking at my current self my perfectionist side doesn't really have a presences anymore. I have more of a 'well its good enough' feel to life now rather than 'well that's 4 greats its freakin terrible', 'I was off one minute getting to work' or 'I stayed in bed for 5 minutes'. I tend to throw whatevers at these now...that could be a possible issue. Then again it could be a ton of stuff.
Now considering it, it could be that I really need a challenge. Cause looking at all my current activities none of them really provoke me and go 'well you failed do it all over again'...think that's what makes me different back then, then I am now. For example time attacks. One thing I rather enjoyed was the amount of precision involved in making sure the pixels were perfect to go up the wall correctly. Have a good bit relating to IT class. INFO250 it either worked or it didn't A or F (one of the seven who passed). INFO495 SAP Introduction, if you did everything right the first 2-3 weeks then the rest of the class wasn't as bad (still nightmarish) if you screwed up then well guess what start over your screwed out 2-3 weeks. I miss being penalized for when I screw up, the pressure being so great that you really didn't want to. Final exams, are probably the only test I excel at due to boarderline grades of doing ok on test (MGMT325 (?) Test 1: D, Test 2: C, Test 3: D, Final: A....wtf)....never thought about it from an academic standpoint but makes sense...minus the bad teachers who couldn't teach.
So it just sounds like I need a challenge, but it seems in today's world of 'its ok to use 4th generation programming languages' , 'do as reps as you can', 'oh you died start from this last checkpoint' it seems more difficult to have something like brought to you. Now when I mean difficulty I don't mean insane and abstract like Zelda Parellel worlds, Metroid Redesign, carving objects out of wood, painting, or predicting variability of electric flow in a power case. Something more along the lines of...well honestly no idea guess that's what I'm looking for...bit hard to do though when the scheduled full with job hunting, working, hanging out with friends, helping friends out (which I enjoy of course as long as its related to life issues), and studying for A+ certification. It could be bad time management as gaming has been limited this week due to the above.
That's another odd thing I started P90X this week and haven't had the urge to play games. Could be due to the twitching hands or what have you but even then could easily do something simple like tower defense. The hunger for gaming has been low on the digital basis. Did play Catan tonight which broke the streak but overall haven't touched it much. Don't get me wrong there's several titles I want to play/wish to play (WoW: Cata, Sol Survivor, TQ and many others)...just....just not feeling it. I'm sure I'll pinpoint it at some point but don't feel its really high priority.
I must admit though based on the results of using various dating sites and submitting applications I could definitely work on my overall life style in terms of making myself more desirable to potential mates and employers. Might pick up volunteering again as I don't think I'm too far from Willow Lawn now...could be totally wrong on this though. Either that or be more diligent about studying for A+. I must admit though if it wasn't for that one individual that took me to the library that day I probably wouldn't have consider taking the new course in life I'm currently on.
Sometimes I must admit it is tempting to go back to school or just quit my job order a bunch of books from Amazon, put my computer in the closet and just read mindlessly. Use to do something similar at the VCU library. With times between studies I would either go to the 2nd floor of the commons or 3rd floor of the new school of business building or 4th floor of VCU Monroe campus library and read. Hell might even read the chapter twice for comprehension purposes (comes from my dad I know that for sure he tends to read everything twice). Either that or become a Monk but seeing how I am an IT major and still enjoy using the computer don't see that happening any time soon.
Though as far as IT majors go have to say I'm probably one of the not so interest person in the fields in terms of keeping up with the latest and greatest. For example I still use my Razor for a cellphone, not a smart phone my Razor. Why? Simple fact is I use it as a cell phone and not a computer. If I need to check facebook, twitter, play some random app, do what have you I can usually wait till home to attend to such things. The only reason I tend to keep my computer updated is to play some of the more up to date titles, which isn't all that many now a days. Though i must admit the blue glow that comes from the case does make me smile.
Ok so after searching my mind for a good bit, I feel as though I've dumped out all my thoughts into this text format. In all honesty it feels pretty good and is probably exactly what I need to do. Some of the stuff I typed I do recall while others was just thoughts on the fly I'll read tomorrow morning and smile remembering that such silly things crossed my mind at 1:30 on the 27th of August 2010. None the less I'll know that I'll be heading to bed with a head with slightly less thoughts. It definitely feels good.
At first I contemplated over this but then realize that the more (turns off TV) I think about it the less good it does. Honestly the best approach is to just sit down and start writing whatever comes to your mind...so here we go.
A lot of stuff has been crossing the brain as of recently some I like and others I don't like. Finding it a bit unsettling that helping other people out is starting to unnerve me a bit. Like the first thing that comes to mind is "Do I actually enjoy making people happy". The answer I have to say is sometimes. Ask me that same question back in the early years of college and the answer would have been totally different. The joys I use to get from helping other people even as a result of screwing myself over were still worth the effort (even if at times it sacrifice grades). Now a days I've become more of a troll, I do help people yes but there's times where I come out of it thinking 'wow I'm a bit annoyed at myself for helping them there'.
Guess it could be due in part that I'd rather have someone figure out something rather than me tell them. Or if I tell someone how to solve something and then they come back later asking the same question. Bit annoying to be honest. I feel live I've gained this dislike towards helping others in such a way. On the same accord though i really do want to get back to helping other people...let alone if I'm studying for A+ certification I should feel like its contradictory...but really its not to me. When people call into the help desk you realize that most of them (not all of them) are clueless you so you expect a bit of computer illiteracy. But ya know like people I've been hanging out for 3-5 years, playing games with, helping them troubleshoot repeatable issues, you'd think some of it sink in.
Prime example tonight while I was typing this post out had two friends encounter an issue with openings. I'm not exactly an elephant in terms of memory but it does quite well related to tech issues. The main problem was involving opening the ports to allow each to connect to there respective games. Came to me to help troubleshoot in the moment I said open ports they were clueless. I also want to blame the current game market as well. Its honestly spoiled gosh knows how many people knowledge wise in terms of opening ports, forwarding packets, configuring to run in various comparability modes...bit frustrating. Cause these same problems have occurred with Diablo 2, Unreal Tournament, Puzzle Quest, and the list goes on. Given its a bit late as I can't recall a majority of the titles so I'll give some credit for forgetfulness.
I must admit in terms of intelligence I honestly don't view myself as that bright of a person. Yea there's times where I go 'Bryant your a genius' or 'wow I'm on a roll today' but in all honestly its just self encouragement. In the grand schema of things (in respect to work and friends) I have to say I am actually smart. Just the amount of non-con-valuated (?) thought that comes to my mind isn't shabby. It could be that other people aren't that bright (I can believe that) but I honestly can't 100% believe that. Though I do enjoy being around techies that make me awestruck who can just do stuff on the fly that I sit down and contemplate over for a good bit. Perfect example of this is the other side of our team that deals with mostly Unix related work...wouldn't mind doing that constantly expanding the knowledge.
Though from a general knowledge standpoint I'm not all that bright. Quite terrible with directions, have a difficult point at times formulating thoughts and stuff that comes natural to others I'm a bit slow at. It kind of bums me a bit because sometimes I think I'm brilliant when I realize its not all true. Hell some people that might read this may believe it was formulated by a 9th grader or something. In all honest though I wouldn't mind improving a bit in some of those aspects. Probably one of the main reason I picked up blogging again to hopefully remove bad habits involving train of thought and expand the vocabulary a bit. God knows I won't stay on topic.
This leads me to one of my most dreaded thoughts...the future. A part of my life I hate thinking about. First it was the goal of getting through high school, finishing college, then landing a job. Yup I've done all that but really, not feeling motivated anymore. I've attempted establishing relationships (one totally) and while it felt good just didn't seem right. It felt like another dead end initially like 'here's your life sir, you'll spend time with this other individual talking about day to day stuff with physically enjoyment and then continue living'. It just didn't feel right like there was no scope and even without one the scope still feel small, tiny, live and die.
After 3 years I have formulated new goals from getting experience in the field. Obtaining a couple certifications but once that's done where does it put me. New job, new place, new place new experiences but when that said in done what next? Will I be feeling burned out another 3 years from now in my 30s being just the same grumpy middle age man limited by the amount of knowledge. I honestly don't know the trip to Ohio is sounding better but the short term (3-5 years) end result seems to be the same.
It could be me just assuming though...heck I know its a 100% assumption what I posted up there but history is a mean mistress and is very good at repeating itself. Not to mention there's that uncertain aspect of seeking a relationship. I wouldn't mind getting back into one but would actually like to date someone (the last 3 were a bit up there) with a more eased back 'sex' drive per se. Unlike typically guys I don't think with the other head too often. To be honest I haven't done that sort of activity in a couple days (which is odd for me as I tend to do it as a ease off sorta deal). So I know I have built up emotions if stuff like that is going down. I'm not too worried there though if something or lack of something happens there, its not much I can do. Its like going to Disney World for the 1st time and guessing everything that's going to occur...not likely. Plus I feel I'm taking a step away from my dad's pimpness...most likely a good thing.
Physically I'm fairly comfortable with myself. Wouldn't mind losing about 10 lbs but honestly not in a hurry. If I somehow shoot back up to 190 then well the ddr machine and me will become good friends real soon, either that or running will become my new hobby. I'm glad I took a break from P90X today the constant soreness was really starting to drag on me. It doesn't take me 7-10 seconds to get up from the computer now. I actually can move *gasp*. I might pick it up again but unsure yet. I'll definitely keep working out though as it makes me feel good and supplies the energy.
Due to all the above think my overall motivation is down a bit from the norm. Ya the exercising and everything is helping a bit but not sure how to best approach getting the 'old' bryant mentality back. I mean I have my old emotions and passion back for things which is great but if it hurts from time to time then what's the point, might as well just tune them out and feel nothing again. Now looking at my current self my perfectionist side doesn't really have a presences anymore. I have more of a 'well its good enough' feel to life now rather than 'well that's 4 greats its freakin terrible', 'I was off one minute getting to work' or 'I stayed in bed for 5 minutes'. I tend to throw whatevers at these now...that could be a possible issue. Then again it could be a ton of stuff.
Now considering it, it could be that I really need a challenge. Cause looking at all my current activities none of them really provoke me and go 'well you failed do it all over again'...think that's what makes me different back then, then I am now. For example time attacks. One thing I rather enjoyed was the amount of precision involved in making sure the pixels were perfect to go up the wall correctly. Have a good bit relating to IT class. INFO250 it either worked or it didn't A or F (one of the seven who passed). INFO495 SAP Introduction, if you did everything right the first 2-3 weeks then the rest of the class wasn't as bad (still nightmarish) if you screwed up then well guess what start over your screwed out 2-3 weeks. I miss being penalized for when I screw up, the pressure being so great that you really didn't want to. Final exams, are probably the only test I excel at due to boarderline grades of doing ok on test (MGMT325 (?) Test 1: D, Test 2: C, Test 3: D, Final: A....wtf)....never thought about it from an academic standpoint but makes sense...minus the bad teachers who couldn't teach.
So it just sounds like I need a challenge, but it seems in today's world of 'its ok to use 4th generation programming languages' , 'do as reps as you can', 'oh you died start from this last checkpoint' it seems more difficult to have something like brought to you. Now when I mean difficulty I don't mean insane and abstract like Zelda Parellel worlds, Metroid Redesign, carving objects out of wood, painting, or predicting variability of electric flow in a power case. Something more along the lines of...well honestly no idea guess that's what I'm looking for...bit hard to do though when the scheduled full with job hunting, working, hanging out with friends, helping friends out (which I enjoy of course as long as its related to life issues), and studying for A+ certification. It could be bad time management as gaming has been limited this week due to the above.
That's another odd thing I started P90X this week and haven't had the urge to play games. Could be due to the twitching hands or what have you but even then could easily do something simple like tower defense. The hunger for gaming has been low on the digital basis. Did play Catan tonight which broke the streak but overall haven't touched it much. Don't get me wrong there's several titles I want to play/wish to play (WoW: Cata, Sol Survivor, TQ and many others)...just....just not feeling it. I'm sure I'll pinpoint it at some point but don't feel its really high priority.
I must admit though based on the results of using various dating sites and submitting applications I could definitely work on my overall life style in terms of making myself more desirable to potential mates and employers. Might pick up volunteering again as I don't think I'm too far from Willow Lawn now...could be totally wrong on this though. Either that or be more diligent about studying for A+. I must admit though if it wasn't for that one individual that took me to the library that day I probably wouldn't have consider taking the new course in life I'm currently on.
Sometimes I must admit it is tempting to go back to school or just quit my job order a bunch of books from Amazon, put my computer in the closet and just read mindlessly. Use to do something similar at the VCU library. With times between studies I would either go to the 2nd floor of the commons or 3rd floor of the new school of business building or 4th floor of VCU Monroe campus library and read. Hell might even read the chapter twice for comprehension purposes (comes from my dad I know that for sure he tends to read everything twice). Either that or become a Monk but seeing how I am an IT major and still enjoy using the computer don't see that happening any time soon.
Though as far as IT majors go have to say I'm probably one of the not so interest person in the fields in terms of keeping up with the latest and greatest. For example I still use my Razor for a cellphone, not a smart phone my Razor. Why? Simple fact is I use it as a cell phone and not a computer. If I need to check facebook, twitter, play some random app, do what have you I can usually wait till home to attend to such things. The only reason I tend to keep my computer updated is to play some of the more up to date titles, which isn't all that many now a days. Though i must admit the blue glow that comes from the case does make me smile.
Ok so after searching my mind for a good bit, I feel as though I've dumped out all my thoughts into this text format. In all honesty it feels pretty good and is probably exactly what I need to do. Some of the stuff I typed I do recall while others was just thoughts on the fly I'll read tomorrow morning and smile remembering that such silly things crossed my mind at 1:30 on the 27th of August 2010. None the less I'll know that I'll be heading to bed with a head with slightly less thoughts. It definitely feels good.
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
Physically and Mentally exhausted (in a good way)
As of recently I've been making a good amount of strides in terms of improving my lifestyle. Been doing workouts every day (which have been pretty killer), going to bed at a reasonable hour (minus tonight) and eating fairly well (also minus tonight, lol). Definitely feeling better about myself overall and starting to feel my willpower come back slowly. The one positive / negative effect of all this working out has been killing my arms which as a result has lead to a good bit less gaming and reversely more productive activities. As my hand/arm is shaking then I can't play many games that require high APM let alone some focus.
The other thing I'd like to note tonight is that definitely made someone feel better. Recently she's been through a lot mentally and felt that it was definitely necessary to hang out. So glad we did. Plans for the evening consisted of walking to the Silver Diner having a meal and walking back. During that period much randomness ensued and many ideas were scattered all over the place. Once we arrived at the diner each of us had a reasonable meal (good bit of water) and a small carry out. Trip back was pleasant as well due to the shorten root taken. What happen next definitely got me thinking.
Have to say there was much discussed that evening, mainly about physically presentation, mental wants from potential individual partners, motivational causes/purposes along with many others. It did get me thinking though, not sure where to begin. Regret I guess was a bit there in my mind but always wish the other the best. One thing I've come to count on more than anything else is friends. Was quite glad to see a friend I haven't seen in a while (as I always am, reminds me I need to hang out with the VCU kids in the future) as even with distance one should definitely keep up with people. In all honesty its probably the only set back to my dad's house but that's a rant for another day. A bit more on topic note it really did make me wonder what I'm looking for and how can I help other achieve it. At first I was tired of playing the 'me' game and looking to play the help other game....actually between this and watching the Colbert Report (on mute) I lost my train of thought...not to mention is 2:05 a.m. off to bed night all.
The other thing I'd like to note tonight is that definitely made someone feel better. Recently she's been through a lot mentally and felt that it was definitely necessary to hang out. So glad we did. Plans for the evening consisted of walking to the Silver Diner having a meal and walking back. During that period much randomness ensued and many ideas were scattered all over the place. Once we arrived at the diner each of us had a reasonable meal (good bit of water) and a small carry out. Trip back was pleasant as well due to the shorten root taken. What happen next definitely got me thinking.
Have to say there was much discussed that evening, mainly about physically presentation, mental wants from potential individual partners, motivational causes/purposes along with many others. It did get me thinking though, not sure where to begin. Regret I guess was a bit there in my mind but always wish the other the best. One thing I've come to count on more than anything else is friends. Was quite glad to see a friend I haven't seen in a while (as I always am, reminds me I need to hang out with the VCU kids in the future) as even with distance one should definitely keep up with people. In all honesty its probably the only set back to my dad's house but that's a rant for another day. A bit more on topic note it really did make me wonder what I'm looking for and how can I help other achieve it. At first I was tired of playing the 'me' game and looking to play the help other game....actually between this and watching the Colbert Report (on mute) I lost my train of thought...not to mention is 2:05 a.m. off to bed night all.
P90X Day 2
I have a good chunk to discuss tonight as there's alot on my mind. The first bit is involving the title P90X the other is on a different pseudo related topic. So I started Day 2 of P90X figured Poly wouldn't be as bad....of course I was wrong, got about 30 minutes into the tape and honestly couldn't push myself further. I feel most of it was unfamiliar with the techniques used as my overall stamina was good, just the whole bending knees and jumping up and down is counter intuitive to the techniques used to survive a ddr song. That and the fact that I've been on and off with the diet though it has taught me to better manage my eatting, which is a huge plus. Though I don't feel too bad as I walked at least 4.5+ miles tonight which I'll talk about after this post. The main thing that's still sore is my arms. If I raise them in a motion similar to the 'chicken dance' I can still feel a bit of soreness. Gonna wait and see till tomorrow before I continue the next arm based program. I will most likely do AB X though as the legs have no problem surviving that. Anywho I'll conclude this here have another rant to write, later.
Monday, August 23, 2010
P90X Day 1 (My Wild Arms!)
To begin I have to admit arm/hand wise I'm having trouble actually typing this as my upper arms are pulsating as a type so I won't make this too long but long enough to cover all the basis and correct the countless typos. In all honestly I should have anticipated the first day to be rough as it read "Chest and Back" and me with my lack of upper arm strength...I'm actually surprised I got as far as I did...had about 15:34 left on the work out which I might finish later, but for now the burning is reminding me that starting it again now is a bad idea.
So the first thing I did not realize is that there were so many versions of push-ups. I knew there was a large amount of pulls-ups to do (as the most I can do is 1-3) but the push-ups were killer. Once I comped out I took a quick break and did ab ripper....which I don't think was nearly as bad (as my lower body is much more dominant then my upper body). Some I couldn't do very well as I wasn't familiar with them while others weren't as shabby and adapted pretty quickly. As I'm typing this I feel like a lot this won't make sense later but might as well get my thoughts out while I can. I'm actually looking forward to tomorrow's portion "Plyometrics" as that's more leg work (I think, <3 leg work). That's about it for now gonna finish off the daily portions I need watch something and head off to bed.
There is one more amusing note I'd like to add, the day I decided to start this is the same day my dad decided to fill the cabinets with junk food...this should be more a challenge...I say bring it, not to mention I have a stupid high will power/resistance urge /shrug.
Later
So the first thing I did not realize is that there were so many versions of push-ups. I knew there was a large amount of pulls-ups to do (as the most I can do is 1-3) but the push-ups were killer. Once I comped out I took a quick break and did ab ripper....which I don't think was nearly as bad (as my lower body is much more dominant then my upper body). Some I couldn't do very well as I wasn't familiar with them while others weren't as shabby and adapted pretty quickly. As I'm typing this I feel like a lot this won't make sense later but might as well get my thoughts out while I can. I'm actually looking forward to tomorrow's portion "Plyometrics" as that's more leg work (I think, <3 leg work). That's about it for now gonna finish off the daily portions I need watch something and head off to bed.
There is one more amusing note I'd like to add, the day I decided to start this is the same day my dad decided to fill the cabinets with junk food...this should be more a challenge...I say bring it, not to mention I have a stupid high will power/resistance urge /shrug.
Later
Monday, August 9, 2010
Starting up the blog again
Well after some consideration I figured I would go about starting my blog again. As to what I'm going to discuss probably going to have 2 entries a day or break it down into categories. So for one I'll talk about my regular boring day like I usually do (as reflecting on it is most enjoyable) and in another entry I'll go into details as to a specific activity or something I read that caught my interest to express my opinions on. Sounds like a reasonable jumping point to me.
Seeing how I am running on 3-4 hours of sleep today gonna speed through my day real quick.
Stayed out home due to feeling sick due to lack of sleep, got lil c's for lunch and had some P90X infomercial in the back ground playing along with some other cable program at a later points "Its me or the dog" something like that. Work day finished played Sol Survivor made some progress on the map along with a little bit of titan's quest. Oh ya the other reason I'm still up was job hunting before midnight...now I am off to bed. Nite all.
Seeing how I am running on 3-4 hours of sleep today gonna speed through my day real quick.
Stayed out home due to feeling sick due to lack of sleep, got lil c's for lunch and had some P90X infomercial in the back ground playing along with some other cable program at a later points "Its me or the dog" something like that. Work day finished played Sol Survivor made some progress on the map along with a little bit of titan's quest. Oh ya the other reason I'm still up was job hunting before midnight...now I am off to bed. Nite all.
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