Busy and worried

I have to admit that after seeing a certain Beta invite in my e-mail box today I'm definitely feeling a lot better or is it the thought that I'll have something to fall back on when I hit that I'm concerned stupor. Will see...

Definitely didn't spend the time to blog last night mostly due to mix feeling but I feel this morning would provide a good opportunity to sit down and flush some thoughts out. Work wise yesterday wasn't shabby to be honest the main reason I went into the office was to have my documentation looked over. It got a half-thumbs up from my boss which I can only come to the conclusion that if its not written exactly how she wants it then its pretty much a flop. Then again I already knew this so I didn't go in there with too much enthusiasm. Aside from this I spent the rest of the day trying not to spend too much time thinking about the horror to ensue tomorrow...which is technically today of course. As a result I spent most of my time watching the 4 day speed demo archive marathon, around Halo I stopped paying attention and started focus on tomorrow task...found out the printer was having issues and was out of black ink so had to stop by wal-mart to remedy that issue. Once that was done played a few matches of HoN with a friend, both games went well...first game had a crap ton of feeders second game i got a carry....ya game over lol.

Guess on to my thought which hopefully I can express properly...right now my main concern is primarily worried and not sure what to expect. Typically if I go into any situation I have a fairly clear idea as to what I'm getting into, how to approach it, and a handful of resolutions. Basically experience to say the least. I've only been to two interviews ever so my experience is limited. There's of course mock interviews but as of recently I haven't really found a medium to practice it in. I actually took a break to step away from the computer because I didn't want to approach this type of post but now I may be able to complete it sense I had a moment to re-evaluate it. Yes I realize its not the end of the world if I don't do well but to succeed one has to jump and crawl over all the necessary obstacles to advance further. This one I feel maybe more difficult the others.

There's also the mix response from the recruiter. I mean he called me back an hour later after I finished the interview to scheule a second interview...which is great can't argue about that but then after rescheduling (due to Magfest) I found out said 'lunch interview' would be about 2 hours...It could be the fact that I've gotten use to my sub hour lunches and a 2 hours lunch sounds a bit silly but I honestly don't know anyone that takes a 2 hour lunch....or I may have miss understood who knows. Though it leads me to believe that for 2 hours there going to test me on something...Its the only logical thought I can come up with. Simply because the phone interview that was suppose to be an hour last time turned out to be 30 minutes with another 30 for myself to ask questions (I used about 15 minutes of it). So it could be that it won't take the entire 2 hours... I don't want to draw any assumptions though. Assuming would be the worst thing to do at this point.

Then again reflecting back on my college career I'm not one that does well when being evaluated. My test scores can attest to that probably the main reason I did mediocre was due to lack of being challenge and that I don't do well in testing scenarios. Basically a sheet paper along with a list of questions makes me clutch. Now of course there are times where I do shine...

Actually getting way to side track and actually cheered up a bit.... thanks for reading :), hate to cut it short of course x.x